human filter

[kossai]

crosspost from tumblr .

this is something which have on mind for some time . as court full of faeries - suppose extranthropes if need to get specific - words like shift do not really make sense of feelings . everything which members of kossai say , feel , think , and do is already entirely faerie - there is no shift to be more faerie . 

still , not always appear in same ways - and that is because of human filter .
not all faerie thoughts , feelings , and actions appropriate for human world , human society , and general human interaction . to live with humans , need to adopt some kind of human filter . 

but this filter can also stifle . have to filter out urges to steal people away , filter out urges to even voice these thoughts . have to filter out references of wings , of otherworlds , of very identity .
constant self monitor and filter will crush anyone - and , without any breaks from filter at all ? filter can catastrophically fail when need most .

so , break time is very important - this break time might use trance or other mind alteration to trigger . how this break time will look , will depend on specifics of nonhumanity .
for kossai as faeries , this include : 

• less use of language 
• more " broken " language 
• higher emotional expression overall
• more indulgence of urges that do not impact others , but still need to filter out among humans - such as urge to dance randomly or make nonsensical music 
• more honesty about faerie feelings , thoughts , and existence - even if still inappropriate to act on

to get to point , would like to suggest some phrases .

• high human filter - actively hide alterhuman or nonhuman identity and traits , to take part in human society and interaction .
• average human filter - not actively hide , but still work to filter out less human-appropriate thoughts , feelings , and urges . 
• low human filter - much more honesty and indulgence in nonhumanity . likely still understand human-appropriate behaviour , but pick and choose what to use .
• no human filter - purely act on instincts of nonhumanity , little to no recognition of human-appropriate behaviour . generally , most free but also unstable state to be in . 

not really own these words or ideas , of course , so feel free to word this kind of discussion in any way that feel comfortable .
maybe high human filter is chrysalis , or human up .
maybe low human filter is fae out .
maybe use door metaphors .
or reference glamour and banality from changeling the dreaming .
or metaphor of shift gears .
anything that help to make sense from this !

just ask to please remember that this specific post come from sapient extranthrope perspective - might not apply to all . :)

Comments

[paradox_in_flux]

this is very similar to how i've come to understand my own nonhuman feelings and thoughts and instincts, as someone else who's a sapient nonhuman (though one who has some overlap with more animalistic nonhumanity). really interesting to see other people put that concept into words. i don't feel as if i become more my species, just that what was under the surface isn't covered anymore, and freer to be expressed

it's definitely an active process for me, even if it's a subconscious and often involuntary one because of how long i've been doing it and how used i am to doing it. and as i've been trying to intentionally drop it every so often over the past year or so, i spend more time going between the middle stages y'all mention than painfully, involuntarily slingshotting between high filtering and no filtering. (only really putting the filter on max when i need it to be.) so it's definitely true for me too that too much time without a break from the filter will make it fall apart entirely when i need it most

thanks for posting this! may try out these words for it, puts it succinctly and makes it easily understood without the same connotations that "shift", for example, does

-Mercury