identity fun

sometimes have weird pillars in identity and not even realise for years .
case in point : special illusion , one of character songs from katekyo hitman reborn . specifically that of fran , future team varia illusionist . of course , kossai did occasionally watch sailor moon or other anime dubs as air on TV , but katekyo hitman reborn was one of first conscious animanga interests . 

and fran ... fran really did something in brain , really just have this hold . this little prick with green hair , who act emotionally flat and seem to feel no physical pain , who annoy others whether or not actually try to , all with immense power in illusions .
special illusion is song which stick even now , and can play from start to finish entirely within mind . and lyrics ? well . very faerie , very mood . this is not something with deep lyrics about horrible trauma , but somehow mean even more to kossai than anything like that . no , this is song about tricksy illusionist who play games in forest , and wager in lives . which one is real ? 

never usually think much about things like song kin , but now when think about special illusion , understand where people come from . unsure if any name really fit importance and feeling of this song to kossai , but this one really is just so important , even moreso than songs with explicit faerie themes . 
just . aaaaaaa special illusion .

dungeon meshi ~ realisation ...

not so much into dungeon meshi as into chilchuck specifically .

really want to like series as whole . but like with theo from celeste , sometimes faerie feelings fixate on character .
this did not make problem necessarily with celeste , was able to still focus , finish base game and then some - but maybe dungeon meshi is not quite style after all , and really just interest in chilchuck . or maybe somehow that fixation on chilchuck cloud out care for everything else about series , even though really do appreciate .

either way , kind of struggle to even think about watch , and chilchuck is main hook . again , really want to like , and really appreciate what go into this series - definitely not hate . just somehow even after watch half of series , not really feel " in " like probably should .

( no problem with celeste is half lie . theo sections from mirror temple levels make kossai gnash teeth . right there ! right there to pick up and steal away ! say faerie brain . )

project log silliness

after kossai start ravelry-esque crochet pattern and project log in obsidian , realise that would be nice to have something similar for sewn patterns and projects .
except , never really save dates for any of those , so kind of have to dig back ... and more than that , most of what sew is freehand . small things - pouches , pillows , clothes for plush toys , that sort .

this result in projects which say things like - pattern : 2 rectangles .
like obviously . what else would this be , kossai . this is pillow . not even fancy pillow with ruffles or tassels or anything . just 2 rectangles . slap and sew .