13th era sheogorath ~ no name snippet
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kossaisome time ago , make attempts to write another sheogorath story , during episode that was hard to deal with . never actually finish , though , and outside of episode would feel wrong to add anything - some of these feelings very hard to get in touch with and understand otherwise .
still , really did like this section , so get some help to clean up and at least make readable .
warnings : identity mess , vaguely description of psychotic episode
[...] he saw himself, a him that hadn't yet been, or maybe had been once long ago? who was he again? it bubbled up within him, never without, never leaving - something was wrong.
"what do you want?" asked the other him.
"i don't know," he answered. "there's a hole. i don't know where. or why, or when."
"that's okay."
"how is that okay?"
flowing, flowing, flowing, the colours they were, drawing him in as he stared himself in the eye.
"do you need the answers?"
"yes."
"need, boy! not want, need!"
"yes! i need the answers!"
but he did not give himself the answers, even as he pleaded.
"then walk the path i walk, and find them."
notes :
back to thaliendir / sheogorath masterpost
still , really did like this section , so get some help to clean up and at least make readable .
warnings : identity mess , vaguely description of psychotic episode
[...] he saw himself, a him that hadn't yet been, or maybe had been once long ago? who was he again? it bubbled up within him, never without, never leaving - something was wrong.
"what do you want?" asked the other him.
"i don't know," he answered. "there's a hole. i don't know where. or why, or when."
"that's okay."
"how is that okay?"
flowing, flowing, flowing, the colours they were, drawing him in as he stared himself in the eye.
"do you need the answers?"
"yes."
"need, boy! not want, need!"
"yes! i need the answers!"
but he did not give himself the answers, even as he pleaded.
"then walk the path i walk, and find them."
notes :
- dialogue is between mortal thaliendir and current sheogorath , where mortal thaliendir ask that first question . while sheogorath collapse and struggle to hold onto self , mortal thaliendir give advice to walk path - in which this path was journey to become sheogorath and embrace madness .
- mortal thaliendir is not actually separate from sheogorath , as sheogorath subsume thaliendir , long ago by this point . this is internal , impossible struggle - sheogorath can not let go of what thaliendir once was , and would not even want to . but existence as sheogorath necessitate and embrace messy feelings by nature , which include those of mortality , death , and identity confusion .
back to thaliendir / sheogorath masterpost
