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kossai thoughts on labels
labels always give trouble . so many out there , but not always really seem to explain what need explain .
kossai really do reject idea that this body is or ever even was human .
in childhood , even , did not accept idea that could be human . would surround in faerie stories , go out in little kid size fairy wings , would write about what feel like to fly . have many innate faerie feelings , knowledges , and experiences .
and even at young age was undeniably plural , undeniably faeries and faerie court , even if much much much smaller back then . eira hold together and give unity , give semblance of " one " that others could believe - but always know was just , not . not one , and certainly not human one .
people try to push and force that away , of course . and really did try for some time to keep up with that , for safety . so many cruelties and threats … did not need to awaken so much as need to feel safe enough to embrace and learn to open up depths again - which still have damage to undo even now .
explore through communities and labels those people use . but ... really , hard to find something that make sense .
some have ties to reincarnation , but that is not accurate here . same thing go for terms which relate to faerie soul inside explicitly human body ... and even terms which have some more leeway do not really give enough room , because people still often have at least one of those perceptions . holothere is not bad to explain physicality , but then come down to another problem ...
there is also this sort of , faerie rejection of labels in general . like sure , sometimes have to use labels to then find community , to talk about things with more clarity , but ... not really weigh that much on how feel . not feel as if word describe and make world less lonely so much as wonder if this will be useful pointer for others to understand .
in end not really would say kossai is faerie kin or faeborn or other such words . sometimes people expect to see these words , and useful when look for communities most likely to understand , but actual identity ... do not feel need to get any more specific than " faerie , yes , in every way . "
yet without specifics , people start to assume relations and assume how to address . many times people address kossai as if faerie in some other life who is stuck as human sadly reminisce , and not faerie court here and now , that always was and always will be . bah !
kossai really do reject idea that this body is or ever even was human .
in childhood , even , did not accept idea that could be human . would surround in faerie stories , go out in little kid size fairy wings , would write about what feel like to fly . have many innate faerie feelings , knowledges , and experiences .
and even at young age was undeniably plural , undeniably faeries and faerie court , even if much much much smaller back then . eira hold together and give unity , give semblance of " one " that others could believe - but always know was just , not . not one , and certainly not human one .
people try to push and force that away , of course . and really did try for some time to keep up with that , for safety . so many cruelties and threats … did not need to awaken so much as need to feel safe enough to embrace and learn to open up depths again - which still have damage to undo even now .
explore through communities and labels those people use . but ... really , hard to find something that make sense .
some have ties to reincarnation , but that is not accurate here . same thing go for terms which relate to faerie soul inside explicitly human body ... and even terms which have some more leeway do not really give enough room , because people still often have at least one of those perceptions . holothere is not bad to explain physicality , but then come down to another problem ...
there is also this sort of , faerie rejection of labels in general . like sure , sometimes have to use labels to then find community , to talk about things with more clarity , but ... not really weigh that much on how feel . not feel as if word describe and make world less lonely so much as wonder if this will be useful pointer for others to understand .
in end not really would say kossai is faerie kin or faeborn or other such words . sometimes people expect to see these words , and useful when look for communities most likely to understand , but actual identity ... do not feel need to get any more specific than " faerie , yes , in every way . "
yet without specifics , people start to assume relations and assume how to address . many times people address kossai as if faerie in some other life who is stuck as human sadly reminisce , and not faerie court here and now , that always was and always will be . bah !