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[kossai]

just think about dream from last night ... funny little thing , that take trip with someone on bus that magically regress passenger ages to 4 or 5 years old .
remember feel this odd conflict in mind , that some part of selves was so young , yet could not let go of adult mind that try to analyse and understand everything .
there was message in this dream , know there was - but of course slip like sand between fingers .

can remember broad strokes , at least ... that in this world , people - and so , kossai too - grow with need to understand everything . nothing can exist without someone figure out and explain , why , when , how , and so on .
which can be wonderful and important questions to ask , this is how things advance so far , yet sometimes also really get in way . this need to understand how something work , or why something did not work , can bog down mind and spirit when really get into magic and spirituality .

sometimes , need just to have trust and try regardless - but many people forget how . what would be sad setback to kid , can feel like impenetrable barrier to adult - did not work this once , so methods entirely flaw . did not work this once , so no point in try again . did not work this once , so will never work in future .
most young kids have this stubbornness , this need to try again and again . and think … that pay off so much more , than to just assume method is wrong and give up . even where that might really be true , improvement can not come if never try again .