dream journal ~ look back

little more tidy up work on dream journal , actually still have lots to do realistically ...

anyway , this is something which know for years now , but curious . kossai do not gain lucidity in dreams very often - every few months at best - but there is one pattern .
anything which obscure vision will awaken . not always instant , but that dream will very soon end , even if try to stop . this can include blink , sunglasses , hat mishaps ... to darken or block out vision , for some reason , is when kossai awaken from lucid dreams .

unsure what come first , of course . lucidity is funny for kossai - usually do not take very much if any direct control of things , more content to explore what is already in progress as is , just with new awareness . in that sense , maybe kossai only blink or put on sunglasses because body is already on course to awaken .
or , maybe somehow , these vision events trigger body into wake up course - would stay asleep and in dream for longer if simply avoid these events .

can not really think of way to figure out , sadly . forever mystery !

community priorities

crosspost from tumblr - original post .

not important :

• whether experience is measurably real or not - virtually all alterhuman experiences will never be measurable enough to satisfy detractors , regardless of origins or expressions .
• whether experience is possible to prove or not - some folks speak of experiences that do not line up with currently known advances , experiences that seem to break laws of physics , experiences with basis in religion and spirituality , or in general scientifically unverifiable . literally so what ?

these categories rigid , and do not address legitimate concerns . folks also take these categories as opportunity to argue - only X is measurably real , Y is not , only X is possible , Y is not - but that will not change individual experiences or worldviews .
while there can be legitimate reasons to talk about proven science and consensus reality , discussion of personal experience without any enforcement or danger on others is not reason .
these arguments only lead to animosity and frustration , and at time various armchair diagnoses even where actual medical criteria is not fit - which can hurt everyone .

actually important :

• distress levels - is this experience stressful , and how much so ? what would help to address and treat this distress , if anything ? some folks will say medication . some folks will say therapy . some folks will say , simply , community acceptance .
• comfort levels - how comfortable is this experience ? sometimes comfort can come hand in hand with distress , but which one is more abundant and why ? what would make experience more comfortable , if anything ?
• risk levels - whether one might misjudge safety and try things that could be fatal , neglect ADLs like nutrition and hygiene , or otherwise follow impulses and poor judgment calls that might worsen life . what can one do to lessen these risks , if anything ?
• autonomy and dignity of risk - ability to make any choices in these above categories , even if against long-term best interests . that is life sometimes .
  everyone deserve right to autonomy and choice - unfortunately , while some would benefit from support , many only have choice to be either totally dependent or totally independent . this must be fix at system level , not push individuals into total dependence and legal guardianship .

these categories able to change with time and mental state , address actual concerns of safety and happiness , and not exclusive to any framework of experience .
there should not be any stigma to admit that instincts high and might need someone to monitor safety for today , that animalistic language is more comfortable than human language , or to make choices against grain . this is personal safety and happiness .

should also be mindful not to dictate what anyone else experience , or to let others do this . this can include :

• anyone who actively want to categorise all religious and spiritual explanation as delusion - even though this is not applicable framework , hurt folks who do fit and use this framework , and generally frustrate everyone .
• anyone who actively want to categorise all psychological explanation as secretly religious or spiritual - this can trigger psychosis in vulnerable folks , and generally frustrate everyone .
• anyone who promise to teach secrets under conditions of payment , secrecy , and/or isolation - demands for secrecy and especially isolation major red flags this arrangement is likely abusive .
• anyone who , in general , regularly argue about what origins , expressions , and worldviews deserve respect , and which ones to treat as lesser or cast out .

understand what red flags of abusive behaviours and potential cults look like , and do not tolerate intentions to hurt or throw peers under bus . direct attention to individuals of concern , rather than sweep statements about entire worldviews and frameworks . this is community safety and happiness .