another failure of dream lucidity

[kossai]

after many years of journal out dreams , of course see patterns in dream language , and knowledge of those patterns can help to become lucid . unfortunately , can rarely do anything with that lucidity .

exhibit 937 : gain lucidity after realisation that computer continue to fuck up , despite apparently fix problem , which is surefire dream sign - technology never work right , even when there is no reason to not . decide to take advantage of this , and shapeshift dream character into miensona to get new outfit design ideas . unfortunately this character just turn into broken hybrid of original appearance and miensona , then manage to lose lucidity and go right back into normal dream state in completely different scenario . 

worst part is , can not even remember what that character look like , either in original or hybrid form . entirely useless for inspiration ! have to wonder why lucidity is so hard to control . non-fronters can literally edit parts or weave entire dreams , but fronter lucidity is absolutely useless . 

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[kossai]

oh yeah , definitely start journal with intention to learn how to lucid dream , but eventually continue just for fun - lots of ridiculous sentences written in there - and occasionally , actually helpful to understand where mind is at :P

learn enough from journal to occasionally become lucid , but then never able to control ... have awareness , but still on rails ! telekinesis utterly fail , shapeshift is half-functional at best , unable to make changes in actual world ...