hospital thoughts
Mar. 25th, 2026 01:43 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
kossairead through some older entries in efforts to re-sort and decide on some candidates for deletion , and definitely feel kind of strange to have record of things that do not remember from hospital stay ( influenza ) last year . fully understand why do not remember - lots of delirium , vomit , and complications with medications - but still weird .
can not help but laugh at some of this , try to wisecrack and say fun things despite all of pain , but also feel sad and frustrate for what that experience put through . because unable to speak , hospital is performance - need to never express any anger , sadness , or frustration that would make nurses feel " threatened " due to lack of words . often also completely lack ability to ask questions about tests and pokes , because usually separate from AAC in one way or another , and can only express most basic of ideas with voice - " OW . "
yeah . feel great sympathy pains for kossai of last year . not even sure anymore who all front during those days - certainly did not keep track very well given everything - but wish could just hug every single one .
can not help but laugh at some of this , try to wisecrack and say fun things despite all of pain , but also feel sad and frustrate for what that experience put through . because unable to speak , hospital is performance - need to never express any anger , sadness , or frustration that would make nurses feel " threatened " due to lack of words . often also completely lack ability to ask questions about tests and pokes , because usually separate from AAC in one way or another , and can only express most basic of ideas with voice - " OW . "
yeah . feel great sympathy pains for kossai of last year . not even sure anymore who all front during those days - certainly did not keep track very well given everything - but wish could just hug every single one .
