sky cotl ~ event sadness

hate when these time limit events have special areas , but only allow to access again if buy item with real money . always end up so expensive ... there is euphoria in wonderland cafe area - feel so small , so many giant things to climb - but could buy full games for this amount of money . probably even full games which have better , more thorough micro experience !

true that aurora wing cape is in same boat , but at least aurora concert is hour long experience , and very pretty cosmetic item even when not in use to revisit concert . wonderland cafe is just one small map , and these area props usually get very little cosmetic use because people wear camera or favourite instrument instead .

minecraft ~ time to get unstuck ?

minecraft ... for long time now , really want to play lots , but then get stuck at these random hurdles . in some part , feel want to make faerie worlds when play alone . and that in self is not really problem - but then get stuck in all these possible details , and just never feel right .

but just today remember something . did once make house which give actual euphoria , on this server with mods . most of mods just fun cosmetic things , but this server also have custom origin mod addons . and of course , would choose fairy .
this did 2 things : first , have permanent elytra without any of endgame work ! never did get rockets , but could still pillar or parkour to take off from height . this also shrink player scale very small - but most other players would have regular scale .

so basically , this challenge to design house that could accomodate bigger visitors , but also take advantage of small size and flight .
main door was 2 blocks tall , for example , but also have several 1 block fence gate doors . and because of flight , these could be anywhere - so make several miniature balconies along walls , just single trapdoors in front of fence gates . this was very useful , especially because kossai is monster magnet , and not always able to reach main door safely .

so really think what need for this to work , is to recreate those circumstances ! not just ask what would faerie things look like , but also how work , especially in mix setting - for flight , for different sizes , and otherwise .
... which is really fucking funny revelation to have when this is literally how kossai home world work .

anyway . did find out vanilla command for player scale , but not sure if this persist between sessions or need to redo each visit . would love to find solution which is datapack or vanilla only , rather than full mods . and elytra part , well , easy enough to just put on elytra . :3

minecraft ~ faerie village

time to try and get unstuck from minecraft - start of little faerie village :)

• resource pack is custom mix and modifications of wolfhound textures by thistlepack , with special highlight on wolfhound fairy .
• all vanilla , but run command of 0.35 player scale for extra shortness , with elytra and slow fall for glide .
• creative mode first , might hop between .
• buildings ideally should accomodate flight and small size , larger visitors , and/or water dwellers .

some thoughts on discernment - is this shift , or crisis ?

crosspost from tumblr - original post .

this is not and never will be full guide to every possible medical reason , but , want to share some of discernment practises and questions for those who might have less experience .
as well , kossai write this as guide for one to evaluate self - not as tool for others to armchair diagnose . please do not harass strangers with these questions .

for any shift type .

• think about what possibly trigger . maybe that is very clear , or maybe need to retrace steps . is this trigger consistent ? keep log if necessary . if there is no consistent trigger despite reoccurrence , or only ever come on once , please treat this as yellow flag . 
• second , how much is this experience comfort , and how much is this experience stressful ? if stress equal or outweigh comfort , why is this ? sometimes experiences can be stressful for outside factors , like worry of others witness in mental shift , but other times that stress is directly from experience . 

mental shifts .

• do this state of mind bring total emotional crash at any time before , during , or after ? 
• if this state of mind cloud judgment and/or impulse control , how severe is this ? if potentially fatal impulses enter mind , how high is chance of follow through ?
• if ever experience loss of language or comprehension during state of mind , what is chance this was some form of stroke ? some strokes can be fairly silent , but still leave with big problems .
• stroke risk or not , big red flag if come out of experience with new cognitive difficulties , especially without recovery or improvement .
• is there any yellow or red flags in family medical history , such as bipolar disorder , schizophrenia , or anything which impede blood flow and function ?
• is there any yellow or red flags in personal medical history , such as brain injuries , or anything in previous point ?

phantom shifts in general .

• where and what is this phantom sensation ? how real do this sensation feel ?
• what is impact of this phantom sensation ? is this comfort ? why or why not ? 
• is there any visual component to this sensation ? what type , and how strong ? some folks do go through visualisation work , but if this come without prior experience in visualisation , consider this yellow to red flag .

phantom shifts with pain .

• how strong is this pain ? often phantom shift is not source of pain , but may seem to explain by coincidence - especially true if this pain is strong .
• do this pain correspond with current medical diagnoses or known family history ? for example , phantom wings , back pains , and family history of scoliosis . 
• sometimes pain is ambiguous in origin , or refer in other places entirely - organs especially can be hard , since there is no way to see these . is any of this pain coincidentally around organs , or refer in ways organ pains might ?

sensory / perception shifts . 

• these shifts do not necessarily mean literal change in sensory ability - rather could be another form of mental shift , changes in how mind categorise and react . for example here , scent shift is not literal super smell , but rather mind seek out and tune into scents that might normally gloss over . 
• still , sometimes there is ambiguity , or difficulty rather than apparent gain . in these cases , would say treat any changes in sensory ability as yellow to red flag . this means any new difficulties in ability to see , hear , smell , taste , or feel physical sensations . tragedies like brain tumours do not play around , even if this is least likely of causes . 

to bring this all around with example …

kossai have periods of " low human filter " , which might consider cousin term to mental shift . kossai can purposefully induce this , and help to release stress . still hold onto judgment and impulse control during these , bar some minor social impulses , and slightly more wacky artistic endeavours . there is no crash at any point , and experiences relieve rather than bring stress - so overall , this is pretty safe . 
someone who feel distress during or after experiences , though , might want to look into triggers more carefully and find ways to manage . especially true if these experiences bring feelings of inability to hurt or to die , lack of appetite , impair vital judgment or impulse control , or otherwise feel likely at risk of injury or death without management . 

finally , please note .

some of these questions come from roots in mental health , others come from physical problems , and some even can be either or . kossai is not doctor of any sort and can not say what best management is , not even if give full details of personal experience . still , if nothing else , please reach out to friends and communities and get more opinions . 

as for fellow community members , if someone reach out with experience that is potentially of concern , for either physical or mental health , please treat with kindness - and once again , do not use these questions to harass others . hostility and refusal of autonomy still will not help .