dancing in the faerie ring

gender is hard and want to melt into gutters right about now .
would joke need to forcefem and forcemasc back and forth but think that would make worse . both very strong , but not in balance way , more like active conflict way . which is very rare , and very stressful .

not look too deep into this , so accept this might not be true , even if apparently some evidence suggest yes - but actually hope not . maybe just cynical but , no . why ? no . please do not take colours away . please do not tone down voices . please do not add grit and realism .

would shivering isles even be in this ? have really mix feelings on potential of overhaul shivering isles characters , and other mad characters like glarthir . as much as love glarthir and did rewrite quest story for thaliendir purposes , that would be more effort over just ... removal - and do believe canonical 2006 glarthir in 2025 would get backlash , as would probably most of shivering isles characters .

not that fail to understand why - violence and total lack of awareness is theme in many of these characters , just because " that is what mad people do " , and characterisation can be light because many of these characters do not have much importance . still , think would be shame to just ignore and remove characters , or try to fully brush past all of stereotypes and make characters too similar , too safe and ironically sane .

really do think many characters have potential to acknowledge and develop beyond first presentation - make stereotypes more of player misconception , rather than whole truth . but again , that is huge workload . and if people might still backlash anyway , maybe not worth that workload .

as of right now , kossai do not have nintendo switch , and not really plan on this in near future .
... but wish there was way to explore worlds of certain games , without actually own and play . some environments in pokemon sword and shield scratch itch ...
wonder if anyone make videos of glimwood tangle with no fights and no commentary , just nice little ambient stroll .

least favourite organisation problem :
happen to have several creative hobbies , with several sets of tools and materials and projects , as well as trinkets , and then little toy and book collections , and other objects .
there is not enough space for all of these . but also , nothing within each category that is exactly disposable . so what happen is things from each category kind of spill out into each other and make messes that overwhelm , but also can not fix .

and this is when already apply several measures to save space : put all movie discs inside carry case , all jewellery inside carry case , tuck little things away into boxes and pouches where possible . not really have any hacks to just , free up space , because already there .
most of what actually happen is just move same things between shelves and maybe thin out some contents of those boxes and pouches , but none of big or loose items that actually get in way .

need something more useful to do with anger towards random hateful strangers . like . people who do not agree , and will not agree probably ever unless someone work miracle to walk through and teach , which kossai can not do anyway . 

most which could possibly do is yell , which like , yes sometimes can be good to do this . but kossai is not really in those situations , more like , just see this kind of person pass by somewhere online .
just fail to understand how people can be blatantly hateful , support deaths and cruel " punishments " , who look at those in need and think fake . but also not really helpful to just shout at that kind of person as random person on internet , whether try to say that is wrong and cruel or fuck off then - people stuck in ways will continue to dig heels in regardless .

but really think because try hard to resist that anger , sometimes just direct in other unhelpful ways instead , especially when try to have civil conversation but other party read difficulty and difference as aggression . that just make things even more hard , and that urge to shout louder . 
try not to act hateful and angry , but faerie is faerie - angers and grudges do not just fizzle away when inconvenient , unfortunately ! 

( of course anger and grudge not just faerie things , but , will probably understand just how much faeries hold onto anger and grudge if know any stories . )